Sarah, I do not have children but I recognized the child in me writhing over a “no” in your offering. My recent no was in the form of the kindest rejection I’ve yet to receive. I responded in grace, but internally and in the days after, I was writhing on the floor, resisting much the same. But unlike your son, my adult mind forgot how to wail for, I tried to reason with my grief, outsmart my feelings to configure a yes. Like I have in many moments of resistance, I put on one of your meditations on accepting what is. It was there I was able to let myself lay on the floor of my heart and wail, to purge and feel through to unclenched fists, recognizing the child in me, holding myself in surrender much the way you soothed your son. Through the guidance of your voice and heart’s wisdom, an ache I’d normally let fester or worse, push down to pollute my worthiness, was released to a dull sniffle in a matter of days. The disappointment still stings, but it cracked open my heart to reveal a storied ache never held. Today’s reading reminded me of the purity of what was taking place within me. And the way you honored his tantrum, regardless of the reason, because it was real for him, reminded me to offer that grace to myself as well. I stand with countless others in gratitude of your willingness to be carved open by the light, so that we may awaken to the wisdom of our hearts. So much love to you and your family.
Again and again the clarity and insight of your thoughts and writing are stunningly beautiful and valuable. The sixty year old little boy remembers the “No” and the oft struggles against it. And yet has found the path leading to heart. This way is a catalyst and the learning profound— it’s truly a gift of yours and a pleasure receive. Gratitude
I’m currently saying a big No and it’s impacting everyone around me. I’ve felt stuck, ashamed, guilty for this. Listening to these words made me feel that maybe it’s ok to sit with the No for a bit , to be more gentle with myself
I love this part: "And that is when I started to meet the voice that I now use in my writing. And this voice I've come to now as the universal heart—this kind of loving consciousness, a loving stream of consciousness."
Oh my goodness Sarah, thank you for writing this! I too am a mother, of 3 little growing girls. I can relate so much to being forced into finding myself after becoming a mother, against my will. You so beautiful put into words what I have felt on this journey 9 years into it.
The ineffable no. What a perfect idea. I’ve always talked about this “wall” that appears before me, or that I hold up on purpose. That’s the inner no. Agh. I just love this so much
“The hardship is far to real to try and talk away with sweetness” YES. My 4 yr old doesn’t need me to make it better. She needs me to acknowledge how real the hardship is for her (even if I don’t understand how devastating it is to have the green plate and not the blue one). Your voice grounds me and I feel soothed. Thank you!!!
This is beautiful and so reveals how we must overcome all that stands in our way as we “become”. It brings connection as it shows even in our innocence as children we are all searching for the yes as we learn to soften the No. thank you
You continue to inspire and teach me with the incredible gift of your words, voice, and gigantic heart, and I continue to be deeply grateful. Beautiful lesson. And so timely for me and my inner child too. Thank you 🙏🏼
Sarah, I do not have children but I recognized the child in me writhing over a “no” in your offering. My recent no was in the form of the kindest rejection I’ve yet to receive. I responded in grace, but internally and in the days after, I was writhing on the floor, resisting much the same. But unlike your son, my adult mind forgot how to wail for, I tried to reason with my grief, outsmart my feelings to configure a yes. Like I have in many moments of resistance, I put on one of your meditations on accepting what is. It was there I was able to let myself lay on the floor of my heart and wail, to purge and feel through to unclenched fists, recognizing the child in me, holding myself in surrender much the way you soothed your son. Through the guidance of your voice and heart’s wisdom, an ache I’d normally let fester or worse, push down to pollute my worthiness, was released to a dull sniffle in a matter of days. The disappointment still stings, but it cracked open my heart to reveal a storied ache never held. Today’s reading reminded me of the purity of what was taking place within me. And the way you honored his tantrum, regardless of the reason, because it was real for him, reminded me to offer that grace to myself as well. I stand with countless others in gratitude of your willingness to be carved open by the light, so that we may awaken to the wisdom of our hearts. So much love to you and your family.
Again and again the clarity and insight of your thoughts and writing are stunningly beautiful and valuable. The sixty year old little boy remembers the “No” and the oft struggles against it. And yet has found the path leading to heart. This way is a catalyst and the learning profound— it’s truly a gift of yours and a pleasure receive. Gratitude
I’m currently saying a big No and it’s impacting everyone around me. I’ve felt stuck, ashamed, guilty for this. Listening to these words made me feel that maybe it’s ok to sit with the No for a bit , to be more gentle with myself
I love this part: "And that is when I started to meet the voice that I now use in my writing. And this voice I've come to now as the universal heart—this kind of loving consciousness, a loving stream of consciousness."
Oh my goodness Sarah, thank you for writing this! I too am a mother, of 3 little growing girls. I can relate so much to being forced into finding myself after becoming a mother, against my will. You so beautiful put into words what I have felt on this journey 9 years into it.
Thank you🤍
Beautiful…although my children are all adults, raising their own little cherubs now, this still speaks deeply to my soul. Deep gratitude, Sarah.
Sarah thank You so much for sharing...
The ineffable no. What a perfect idea. I’ve always talked about this “wall” that appears before me, or that I hold up on purpose. That’s the inner no. Agh. I just love this so much
thank you, Sarah. This is so wonderful.
Thank you ❤️
Absolutely beautiful, thank you Sarah. Your words always touch the depths of Being and radiate so much love and warmth. Many tears and gratitude <3
“The hardship is far to real to try and talk away with sweetness” YES. My 4 yr old doesn’t need me to make it better. She needs me to acknowledge how real the hardship is for her (even if I don’t understand how devastating it is to have the green plate and not the blue one). Your voice grounds me and I feel soothed. Thank you!!!
Again and always Sarah, my Gratitude.
This is beautiful and so reveals how we must overcome all that stands in our way as we “become”. It brings connection as it shows even in our innocence as children we are all searching for the yes as we learn to soften the No. thank you
You continue to inspire and teach me with the incredible gift of your words, voice, and gigantic heart, and I continue to be deeply grateful. Beautiful lesson. And so timely for me and my inner child too. Thank you 🙏🏼